“I wake up every day torn between the desire to save the world and to savor the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.” –E.B. White
My name’s LAV, and I’m a library workaholic.
By this I mean I have a hard time saying no to anything. I get to work early, I stay late, and I have to be reminded to take my time back. I struggle to make time for breaks and lunch, and sometimes I’m so involved with what I’m doing, I forget to eat. I volunteer for things no matter how many things I’ve already volunteered for, and I’ve never met a committee assignment I didn’t like. Every day I get at least twenty brilliant ideas that are going to inevitably result in more work for myself, so of course I try to do them all at once. Finally, whenever I try to set boundaries, say no to assignments, and delegate tasks to other people, I end up caving faster than a master spelunker the first time I meet any resistance.
Behold, the shadow side of finding your life’s work: the inability, sometimes, to let it go and get a life.
I imagine this would trouble me more than it does, except for one thing: I play just as hard as I work. And I’m always looking for opportunities to incorporate play into my work. Let us take, for example, the presentation I gave last week at The School of Information Sciences at the University of Pittsburgh:
A quick flip through those slides tells you something about my sense of humor, but also demonstrates my commitment not to take any of this too seriously. I love our electronic resources, and I want to do a good job, but I want to make sure I keep the work within its proper perspective.
Did you wince at that, just a little? Me too. It sounds…sacreligious, almost, the idea that we could take anything we do too seriously. And yet, there it is in a squirmy nutshell, the need to be devoted and passionate without becoming a monomaniac, the kind of person people avoid at parties because they can’t stop talking about library service for five seconds.
Hence the silence here at Alchemy: there’s been a lot of other work to do, and I’ve sacrificed library blogging in favor of play. This year I’m participating in National Novel Writing Month, colloquially known as NaNoWriMo, and I’m having the time of my life. I just crossed the 30K word count over the weekend, and I can’t even begin to tell you how liberating it feels to cast aside the fear of “not being good enough” and just let the words ripple out.
In fact, I feel taller, somehow, and much more confident about my library workload. After all, if I can write a 50,000 word novel in a month (albeit a bad one), what else can I do? Heaven only knows. And NaNo actually has a whole plan for library programming, so it’s not all that far afield from library work after all – ah, those slippery slopes!
Reading Zen Habits has also proved helpful in my never-ending quest to balance work and play. If you’re looking for a kinder, gentler productivity blog, try sampling its advice on taking action, cleaning up your workspace, and even the whole workaholic thing at large. It’s even good for a hearty laugh from time to time (of all possible workplace challenges one could face, that one never crossed my mind). The overriding theme of the blog is achieving more by letting go, which sounds counter-intuitive. I suggest, though, that you approach this notion the same way you approached the last Library 2.0 innovation you tried – test it out for a month, see how it works, discard if necessary.
How do you know if you’ve got the work-play fulcrum set right for you? You’ll know. You’ll know because, in spite of everything, you will feel joyful, even when you are not always happy. If library work doesn’t make you feel joyful at the core, well…that’s a blog post for another day.
I’ll have a quick update on Friday to announce my next crazy little experiment, and there will also be a poll in which I ask your opinion on a matter of critical import. Stay tuned.